My Best Friend Not Forever

Today I found out my ex-best friend, Daniel, still really wants to be my friend. We've had a rocky friendship the last year when he started dating a girl from our school. She fucked things up. And it wasn't just me being jealous, all of our friends felt rejected, betrayed, and pissed off by him. It wasn't that he would spend all his time with her, although he would spend a lot with her, it was that he changed. Daniel went from this goofy, horny friend to a stressed out, angry, and madly confused jerk. So we pretty much stopped being friends.

Daniel and his monster dick - I mean - drink.

Luckily we've pretty much reconciled our friendship but it's just not the same as it used to be. He's still dating the girl but she goes to a different high school so it's not so bad. For the last few weeks I've had a rough time knowing whether or not Daniel really wanted to be good friends anymore but my question has been answered. I'm number three on his Myspace Top 8, below his 2 cousins and above his girlfriend. And it may just be a Top 8 --- who gives a shit? I know he takes pride and a lot of thought put into making his Top 8 and he doesn't just have anybody up there.

I miss him. Not in a gay way. I miss him as a friend. He's so funny and we laugh at all the same shit. He was the best best friend I've ever had. I hate that we never get to hang out.

On the topic of getting to hang out; I saw my girlfriend at work today. It was awkward because we have to fake it since it wouldn't be appropriate for us to date since we're co-workers. We'd look at each other and want to kiss and it we just couldn't. It was so hard not to just run up and plant one on her. I spent some time with her when she got off though so that was awesome. I feel like a King when I'm talking to her. My baby.

These two people make me feel so awesome. I wish everyone close to me in life made me feel this way. Unfortunately, some people just bring me down. That's fucked up.